Money can corrupt, I have seen what new wealth can do to people, and I’ve experienced it firsthand. However, even just a little money can distort the thinking and blacken the eyes; especially in the hands of the young. I almost lost a relationship with a close family member because I spent money that I should not have. I have certainly lost friends because of it and my marital arguments are almost always about it. I’m not greedy, far from it, I am very much of the attitude ‘if you’ve got it, give it, if you haven’t, take it’ but sometimes I am too easy to give and too ready to take. This causes problems. I've woken up on so many mornings and felt a deep regret when I realise my previously healthy bank balance went up in smoke the night before. Theses are some of the Black Dog's favourite days. He hasn't missed one yet.
To be honest I spend a lot of time despising money, sometimes when I have it but always when I do not. Its heavy control over my lifestyle and thus my happiness causes tension in my chest; my nonexistent control over it causes migraines in my head. It is the one thing that can consume me, I mean literally bring me to tears of anger and frustration, I hate myself for spending it and I despise it for having such power. Money is not the root of all evil. Poverty is the root of vast evil; when you’re broke, desperate, bored, under-stimulated and depressed you have nothing to lose and that’s when you make really bad decisions; decisions to earn easier money in, often, harder ways. Dangerous work pays dangerous money, dirty work pays dirty money, desperate work pays desperate money. Even less satisfying and usually emotionally destructive. Rather than solving your financial ills and improving your lifestyle this money only serves as a quick fix, and like most quick fixes usually has consequences. The disgust at how the money is earned often renders it even less valuable serving only to exacerbate the problem.
Now I am old enough to understand that my relationship with it is probably unsalvageable I am happy for it to be largely out of my control.
Without it you are powerless, with a little you are powerless, with some you are powerless and with a lot you are powerless, when you have it all then you can rule your world.